I love Weddings!

I just love weddings, they are so much fun! We went to a friends wedding yesterday and it was so nice. Awesome setting, great day, good group of people, yummy food and lots to drink, what more can you ask for! It's so nice watching a couple on such a high, the bride and groom truly had an awesome day as they had the day just as they wanted it!

So today I'm feeling a bit bloated from all the food and drink but I'm sure after a few days I'll be back to normal. I did do a lot of grooving on the dance floor last night although don't think it would have come close to burning of even half the calories I consumed, oh well it was all worth it. Cam even got up and was doing some (funky), well not quite sure what moves but he was moving on the dance floor alright!

So I'm all packed up ready to fly up to Cairns in an hour or so. I'm actually looking forward to heading off on my work trip as its been a while now and it will be good to get back into the swing of things, although not looking forward to the cold down south. I know Canberra is always cold and so is Melbourne and I'm sure Adelaide will be too! It's a bugger coz I can't pack much stuff as it's a six day trip but I can never check a bag on, so I'm a bit limited on clothes to take. Especially since I need 5 sets of training gear and my sneakers plus a lot of my food (protein powder/oats/ tuna etc), it doesn't leave much room for clothes!

I'll get to catch up with the family in Adelaide and lots of friends in Cairns so I'm really looking forward to the next couple of weeks. In saying that the social eating and drinking is about to get cut in half. If I'm going to get on stage in 8 weeks I need to get my act together and start making some serious progress! I've started to change my training around and have been challenging myself a bit more. I managed a couple of soft sand beach runs this week and geez it was hard, but strangely love the buzz I get out of pushing myself. So if I can just stay on track with my nutrition I should be alright.

Anyway better get moving, need to have a cuppa with the lovely hubby before I head off for 2 weeks!

Hope everyone is well, love Hilds

FEELING GOOD

I'm feeling great at the moment, it's been two weeks since comp and I've managed to get back on track and I'm loving life! My weight and measurements are all pretty much where I was at the week before comp which I'm really happy with.

I'm right back into training and have actually been enjoying it, strangely loving my running at the moment (actually a bit addicted!), I even went for a run on Saturday morning after going out for a Hen's night on Friday and having some bevies (Cam thought I had lost it). I think I could be the new campaigner for exercise, it seriously is better than any medicine out there! I've realised recently that exercise for me is much more than about being fit, lean, healthy etc etc, I actually love exercise for my mental well being. It might sound a bit nutty but I'm such a happier person after a good run and just love those endorphins running through my body, I've got to the point now that I don't even think about not doing it as the mind games wouldn't be worth it.

I introduced some plyometrics into my routine last week (gotta get that wobbly bum in shape) and it hurt to sit all week (not good when I go to the toilet so often), I was still bloody sore by Friday. I've got to do it again tomorrow so I'm hoping I don't pull up as sore as it made my running and spin classes a bit difficult last week. So as usual the training is going along nicely although the nutrition is a bit up and down. I tend to be pretty good throughout the week but have been having one day on the weekend where I allow myself some treats, yesterday it turned into a few too many treats (still a work in progress). So I'm not sure how my day of treats will affect my progress but honestly at the moment I'm really enjoying being "normal" for a while. It's so nice to be able to have a piece of cake if you feel like it and not have to say no to everything. The good thing is I have found that after a day of foods I don't normally eat I'm ready to get back into the good clean food the next day...

So I would love to compete again at the Qld INBA State show in 10 weeks and then at the Nationals but I'm just going to see how the next few weeks pan out. If I can slowly drop a little weight over the next month then I might just do it as I will be in a good place, although I'm not quite prepared to get too strict just yet as I know that I couldn't maintain it, so we will just wait and see!

So all is good from me, I'm loving life and feeling fantastic. We have got lots of exciting things happening over the next few weeks. Tuesday we have friends arriving from Cairns for a couple of days, then more friends coming on Friday night, Saturday we have a big wedding to go to. Then on Sunday I'm off to Cairns for a 6 day trip on Monday, I've got 2 nights in Canberra, 1 night in Melbourne and 2 in Adelaide so I'll get to catch up with the family! Then I've got a weekend in Cairns to catch up with lots of friends, another 4 day trip to Canberra and Perth, home for my Birthday on the 16th and then 2 glorious weeks at home. I've planned a 70's Disco Party for the weekend after my Birthday, I just love theme parties and I love the 70's!

So lots of exciting stuff happening but have already planned all my training regardless of where I am, who says you can't be fit and healthy and live out of a suitcase!

Bye for now, love Hilds

Time to get back on track!

Mmmmmm all my favourites!!!!

So it's been one week post comp and as I promised myself I've had a full week off from my nutrition plan. I've been a bit of a pig this week, having lots of treats and just enjoying myself socially but the day has come where it has to stop! So today I'm back on track, no more being a pig as if I want to compete in October I can't afford to keep eating crap! I wanted to have a whole week off training and nutrition although I've still been for 3 big runs and a couple of power walks as I just feel better mentally after a good workout! Although I made up for it on the food front, forgot how much I could eat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm back into it today, went for a big run and the weights start next week! Nutrition is back on track, I'm actually a bit over all the crap food anyway, I'm looking forward to waking up feeling lean and hungry again (not bloated and sluggish!). I'll be tracking all my food in Calorie King and blogging a lot more just to help me stay on track.

So overall I'm feeling bloated and fat but strangely ok with it as I know after a full week of eating clean and training I'll be ok, I just need to make it through this next week and I'll be feeling a lot more confident with achieving my next lot of goals.

Anyway better keep moving, lots to do!

Love Hilds

I JUST LOVE EVERYTHING HEALTH & FITNESS!

I must say I'm absolutely loving helping others with their Health & Fitness Goals. My online business Get Active Online is going great. One of my very first clients Lee Horton is this months WH&F Mags 12 Week Body Blitz Winner!

So since returning from Comp I've been pretty busy with business stuff, although loving every minute of it. A big thanks to everyone for their comments regarding comp, I just loved everything about comp day and might just do it again yet!

The big challenge at the moment is finding that balance. I've given myself a week of freedom, although struggling a bit with it all. I tend to have a day where I'm really good (trying to be too good most probably) and then a day where I just crave junk! I'm not stressing about it this week as I wanted to give myself a full week not to stress over it. I've managed to go for a couple of big runs and will try and fit two more in before the weeks out. I'm avoiding going to the "actual gym" this week as I need a break.

I would really like to give the Nationals a go in October but it means I'd have to get back into it on Monday (11 weeks out). If I decided to do it I'd want to be a lot leaner this time around plus really work on my stage presence and posing! I do get excited about the thought of doing it again although just wonder if I'll be able to get my mojo back (next week will tell!). I think I've discovered I'm a girl who needs a goal! If I don't have something to work towards I feel a bit lost, I don't know if it's a good or bad thing but it's me. My biggest concern in competing again was my wonderful hubby cam, but he just supports me 100% whatever I want to do so can't use him as an excuse. (Some more fun pics & me getting glued and makeup touch ups back stage, geez I felt like a princess for a day!)

Anyway better keep moving, the sun is shining and I've got some dirty cars to wash (how exciting, not!)

Thanks again to everyone in blog land, your all an amazing support and thanks again for your kind words!

Love Hilds

I've done it & I had the best time ever!

I can't believe I've finally done it. After wanting to compete for so long I've finally achieved my goal & it was better than I could have ever hoped for.

The whole experience has just been so much fun and I feel so lucky to have met so many amazing people! I don't think the weekend would have been quite so good if we hadn't all stayed in the same place. From Friday onwards it was just fantastic sharing all the lead up and excitment of the day together. My biggest supporter and fan, my amazing hubby Cam didn't arrive until late Friday night after sitting at the airport all day trying to get a flight, he wasn't going to miss it for the world. So once Cam arrived the whole team was there, Di & Gerard, Shar & Paul, Vicki (Hair & Makeup superstar!), Cheryl & Christy, Jenny & her Mum Pat.

Saturday started with Hair & Makeup at early hours, but who can sleep the night before comp anyway! Then it was off to the show for registration and get ourselves sorted.

The first time I had to step on stage I was quite nervous but by the 6th time I was loving it! The day just flew by as there were 3 rounds in Sports Model and I basically had enough time to get changed and I was out there again. I can't even begin to thank everyone for all there help back stage, Vicki was truly amazing, she was there everytime ready to fix my hair and just help out (I felt like a superstar for a day!). Di was the best, without her and my amazing hubby I wouldn't have achieved my goal. Di made the whole process so much fun and nothing has ever been too much trouble. I just feel so lucky to have met and become friends with so many amazing people. Oh my god nearly forgot the cheer squad, you all made my day! I couldn't help but grin from ear to ear with all that cheering going on. THANKS!

My Comp goals were to step on stage and feel confident & to have fun & I well and truly had lots of fun! I know that I have a lot of improvements to make if I want to compete again but the goal this time wasn't about being the best, it was about feeling confident and proud about what 'I' had achieved and truly enjoying the experience. The bonus was I game 3rd in my round and got a trophy to take home. Initially I was quite intimidated by all the other competitors and felt way out of my league, but once I reminded myself I had done the best that I could I stopped comparing myself to everyone else and just enjoyed what I had achieved.

So for me, comp has been a fantastic experience. After comp the weekend was spent catching up with people and eating lots of yummy melbourne food! Oh and the coffee's, I don't know how many coffee's I had but they are sooooo good in Melbourne.

So I'm back home now and back on the good food, couldn't handle much more junk after eating flat out for 2 days. I even went for a run this morning and it felt fantastic! I've decided not to step near the scale for at least a week and then I'll see where I'm at.

I'm toying with the idea of competing in October although need to give it a couple of weeks to see where I'm at.

Anyway enough for one post. I've attached some pics, not the best quality but lots of fun shots!

Keep Smiling, Luv Hilds

I'm here!

I've made it to Melbourne and it's bloody cold! I decided to come down a day early as flights were getting full due to school holidays and coz I travel on standby I didn't want to risk it on Friday. I'm just hoping Cam gets on a flight tomorrow.

So I'm just hanging out in my toasty apartment in town, I'm enjoying having the heaters going flat out and just relaxing. Although too much time on my own doesn't seem to be a good thing. I just tried on all my outfits for the comp and I'm not too happy with how I'm looking, I kinda felt better a week ago. I'm hoping once I've tanned up and Saturday arrives I'll be looking better. Obviously I've still got a lot of work to do on my legs and butt but I've done the best I could to get where I am now. It's hard coz I know I don't need to be super lean like the figure girls but it's hard not to compare yourself and next to a figure girl I still feel fat! Anyway enough of the negativity, I think I'm just starting to panic. I've got to keep reminding myself that I'm doing this for me and I've done everything I could to get where I am and I need to enjoy Saturday!

I'm so excited about tomorrow, Cam should get here along with Di & Gerard, I'll get to catch up with Shar and meet her hubby and Christy and Cheryl will also be coming in. I feel for the poor boys caught up in it all (although I don't think many blokes would mind being surrounded by bikini clad girls!).

Anyway that's it from me, most probably won't be checking in until after comp. Thanks Hilary & Selina for your well wishes and I promise photos as soon as I get back home.

Luv Hilds

4 DAYS TO GO!

Wow how close is it now! I'm excited but getting a bit nervous now, worried about controlling my nerves on the day, will I look ok....... So many things, but overall I'm just excited, IT'S GOING TO BE SO MUCH FUN! My biggest goal is to have a blast and enjoy the moment! I still can't quite believe I'm going to finally do it!

I'm finding these last few days tough to say the least. I'm tired, having big cravings, sick of having no energy, generally look and feel like shit! You start to wonder how in 4 short days you are going to feel fantastic, I think one bite of chocolate would do it (he he he, already drooling at the thought).

So I've been keeping myself busy. Sunday was an AWESOME day, we went out for breakfast (I had herbal tea) and then I went on my first chopper ride! Some good friends own Whitsunday Helicopters and were nice enough to take us on a ride over the Gorges, dams and rain forest. We were hunting out cool camping sites, and we found plenty. I loved being in the chopper, so smooth and fun! Although felt a little queasy went we did a few crazy moves, but overall an awesome experience.

Yesterday I ran around like a headless chicken, getting all my comp goodies. I think I'm finally sorted and just need to find a way to fit it all in, I can't believe how much stuff I've got. Having three outfits to sort out plus the Sunday photo shoot is has taken some organising.

I hit the gym early today and got my training out the way as the pampering starts today. Firstly I need to get my waxing out the way and then this arvo it's time for a much needed Hair appointment, I'm hanging out, bring on that head massage!

Tomorrow is my final day of training and then it's off to get my nails done! In between I really want to clean the house. As after comp I'm off to Adelaide for a few days and when i get back I want to be able to finally relax with Cam in a nice clean place!

Anyway time to free this body of all signs of hair! OUCH.....

Keep Smiling, Luv Hilds

Buzzing......

That describes me at the moment! I should be feeling shattered but instead I can't stop doing things buzzing about with too much energy for what I should have! I'm sure I'm just super excited as the last couple of nights I haven't been able to sleep well either.

I'm enjoying being on holidays for these last few days of comp prep, it is such a relief not to be flying. Although not all rest and relaxation, the business is going along nicely and keeping my just busy enough (don't want too much work for the next 9 days!). So everything is on track for Melbourne, I even started getting clothes out ready to pack (just a little excited). Just waiting on one of my costumes to be altered and everything is all organised.

I'm looking forward to next week as I get to do all the girly stuff. Have booked in to the Hairdresser, need to get my nails done, waxing and lots of time on the beach!!!!! Sounds like the perfect week, except no wine or chocolate.

Anyway nothing exciting happening here, just counting down the days.

Looking forward to meeting lots of bloggers soon.

Hilds

Struggling.....

Oh my god I'm sooo hungry! I keep telling myself only 12 days to go, don't lose it now! It's funny how some days you just breeze through and others are a constant struggle. I'm sitting here just counting down the time until I can go to bed so I don't have to fight the urge to eat something I'm not suppose to.

I've done a bit extra training today, so that is most probably why I'm so hungry!!!!!! Geez I can't wait to have some energy and more food again. Anyway only 12 short days and it will all be worth it!

Today I've been planning all my catch up dates when I go to Adelaide after the All Female Classic. All my family and close friends are in Adelaide and I can't wait to catch up with them all, and I'll actually be able to have a glass of wine. I've learnt from past visits that it's best to organise it all before I go or I never have enough time to see everyone I want to. So it's looking like all my days are full and I should have a great week, as long as it's not too cold!

Anyway not much else happening with me, just trying to train as much as I can and keep my head out of the fridge.

See you all soon, Hilds

Pushing Through......

Geez I've been a slack bogger this year! I've been loving reading every one's but when it comes to posting I have so much to say coz I've left it too long that it all seems to hard!!!!

Anyway 2 weeks to go and I'm counting those days!!!!! Had a fabulous weekend last weekend with the amazing Di. God that girl is an inspiration, she is so motivated but most of all so giving! Gerard is one lucky man, I kinda felt guilty going home to my poor neglected Cam who tends to fend for himself, especially at the moment with the little energy I have it doesn't necessarily get spent on him. Oh well not long to go and life should be little more normal.

So after my weekend away I was feeling so motivated and super excited about the show. I just want it to be here now and my biggest goal is to have "FUN" with it. It is going to be a great amazing opportunity to meet so many amazing people, I'll apologize in in advance if I forget names (a really bad trait of mine), please don't take it personally, I'm just really bad with names! (will work on it!).

Feeling a bit run down at the moment, got back from my weekend away with the razor blades in my throat, which is always a sure sign of a cold to come. Have managed not to get too sick, but haven't been feeling great. Especially since I picked up another trip which saw me fly out Tuesday night, fly around the country and get back late last night feeling very very average! Too many early starts, not enough sleep and no cooked food! Anyway I'm back at home and managed a spin class this morning, maybe shouldn't have been there but this close to comp I couldn't bear the thought of not training! Also I checked my weight this morning and no movement, although cm's are still coming down nicely. Wasn't expecting much weight movement this week as I had a massive drop last week although was still secretly hoping!

Anyway better keep moving, need some food for the fridge and it's house cleaning day today! (oh joy).

14 DAYS TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So much going on!

It seems that when things happen they tend to happen all at once. I can't believe it's only Tuesday and we have had so much exciting news already!

Can't reveal all just yet but things are finally looking really positive!

So less than 4 weeks to go until Comp time, I'm starting to count down the days now. I'm very excited about it all and also looking forward to getting my life back. At the moment I seem to live in sweaty gym clothes, constantly preparing food and generally just thinking about comp. This weekend I'm off to see the fabulous Di! I can't wait to get some tips from the pro, as I need as much help as possible getting my confidence up on stage! So with everything about comp at the moment it hasn't left time for my new business venture!

For a while now I've been in the process of setting up Cam's and my own online personal training site & yes it's finally up and running! Check it out www.getactiveonline.com , obviously it's a work in progress but it's so exciting to be finally following my dream. I can't wait to help others reach their health and fitness goals and generally just feel better about themselves. So I've got 6 weeks off from Flying and I will be busy getting things off the ground!

Anyway time to get these sweaty gym clothes off, just finished my spin class and geez I'm feeling it today! (might need a nana nap before my arvo cardio sessions).

Keep Smiling everyone!

Luv Hilds

I'm doing it!

Well no point avoiding it any longer, for a while now I've been training my ass off and eating well in the hope of making it to the INBA All Female show in July! Today it's officially 1 month out and as freaked out as I am there is NO WAY I'm not making it to that stage in July!

I've had the help of gorgeous Di from Fabulous figures getting me prepared (& just listening to all my whinging along the way!). I have decided to give the Sports Model Division a go!

At the moment I have the constant mind games going on, one day I'm feeling great and can see myself making it and the next I can't imagine how this huge ass of mine is ever going to shrink enough for me to feel good about getting on stage. For me I just really want to do this to prove to me that I can! It scares the hell out of me and the thought of standing on stage freaks me out (I'm nervous just thinking about it now!), but for some bizarre reason I really really want to do this!

So 1 month to go! I've got one more trip to Japan to survive tomorrow and then I have a few weeks at home to burn some serious fat! I've done a few overseas trips lately and I'm really struggling with the lack of sleep. Yesterday I got back from Japan, had two hours sleep and felt like crap all day! Anyway only 1 more to go and then there are no excuses for not being 110% with my nutrition and training!

Today I've managed to get my weights out of the way nice and early and backed it up with an RPM class. Geez I burned some calories this morning! I've got a big run to go this arvo and I'm all done for another day, one day at a time!

Anyway time for a coffee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Luv Hilds

Busy, Busy, Busy...

Well it's been a while! I've been flying all over the countryside but finally home for a week or two.

At the moment I'm part time flying (flight attendant) and fly about two weeks out of the month. As I'm now living in Mackay I still have to fly up to Cairns for work but tend to do longer trips so I don't have to go up too often.

This month I had my worst nightmare happen to me! I got the dreaded phone call at 4:50am asking where I was as my flight was leaving in 40 minutes!!!!!! Geez I thought an interval run was hard, but have you tried getting ready, packing bags for a 6 day trip, driving to the airport, running to the terminal (all with a head cold) in 40 minutes!!!!! Well, let me tell you it's bloody hard, but possible. It's amazing what you can do on adrenaline, I couldn't imagine not making it and having a aircraft full of people stuck because I slept in.......

Anyway got that trip out the way and got to come home for two days to participate in "Relay for Life". It is such a great event, and amazing to see everyone get involved. It really hits home that Cancer can hit anyone and it felt good to be helping in a very small way.

So after a couple days home, I was back up to Cairns to go to Japan, not once but twice in one week. Geez I haven't done a Japan for a while and I sure don't miss the lack of sleep on the way home. Although I did enjoy Japan, managed to go for a great walk and do some stair sprints with a fantastic temple as the back drop! So anyway landed home on Saturday a very very tired tiger. I contemplated flying straight to Brissie for the comp but didn't think I'd be looking or feeling too flash, and I don't think it would have been a great look sleeping at a Body Building Comp. So very annoyed I didn't make it, but completely inspired by everyone who competed (more pics everyone, you can't post too many pics!).

So back home, doing lots of training and enjoying being in one place for more than two days!

Well enough rambling for one post, time to eat!!!!!!!!

Love Hilds

Entertainment at the gym.........

There's many reason we all choose to go to the gym, I love the feeling I get AFTER a great workout. Some people love the different classes or just having some time out from the kids. Well I've discovered a new reason to go to the gym! Pure entertainment! Man I could just sit in the corner for hours and watch all of the funny little things that everyone does. Everyone seems to have their little habits or special routines they like to do. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with it, it's just some leave me feeling a little bewildered. There is this one lady who goes to my gym who insists on cranking the treadmill up on full incline and then at a running speed hangs on to the handles for dear life and runs. It's just the funniest thing to watch, it looks like her arms are going to snap off at any time! Anyway at least she's out there doing stuff (or maybe just out there!).

Anyway I'm loving my spin classes at the moment! I'm truly hooked, i just wish my gym had more on. I find it so much easier to really push myself in a class environment. My training has been going great, although today I woke up with a cold. Don't really know where it came from but have felt rotten all day. I'm not very good at being sick, so have been bored out of my head all day just hoping a good day of rest will help me to get back on track asap. I've been a good girl and haven't trained today. I still put my training gear on this morning and contemplated it for a good couple of hours, although after realising how much I was struggling to just walk around the house I figured going to the gym was a very bad idea.

I'm flying up to Cairns to start my next 6 day trip on Friday. It's a pretty cruisy trip so I should be fine to go! I'm hoping I can train tomorrow but will just have to wait and see how I feel in the morning. It's strange how much I hate missing my training sessions, don't get me wrong I love having a day of here and there but when I can't train it really annoys me.

Anyway better get organised and bags packed to head of tomorrow. Hope everyone is having a fabulous week!

Cheers, Hilds

Back to normal!

I just realised how long it had been since I have blogged. I suppose when your feeling down you don't really want to keep whinging about it!

The good news is I'm back to normal (if there's such a thing). And wow is it great to feel human again. I can finally fit back into my clothes again and my moods are back on track. It's amazing when you start to talk to other people about what your going through you find so many others who have experienced something similar. So after many weeks of hormonal hell I'm feeling great. Training is going great guns and nutrition is good. I've been pretty busy flying around with work the last 3 weeks but am happy to say i'm at home for 2 1/2 weeks now. Lots of exciting things happening at the moment, but will save that for another post.

Keep Smiling! Hilds

Things are looking up....

I finally feel like things are getting better. The last few days I feel I have been in control of my moods so much more. On Friday I went to see a Naturopath who specializes in women's hormones. I felt so much better after leaving as I could start to understand why I have been feeling so down. So I'm taking a couple more supplements which should help level my hormones out. Already I'm noticing a difference and I have lost a lot of the puffy feeling. I've also managed get stuck right into the training and have been loving my spin classes and long walks in the arvos. As much as I dread it on most days, just getting out in the fresh air in the afternoons helps my mood so much. I'm also tracking my moods to see if there is certain things that affect it and just to help me become more aware of my monthly cycle (whenever I get one!)

I'm of tomorrow, up to Cairns and then of to Sydney on Friday. I've got my dreaded Emergency Procedures training, I can't wait until its all over (bring on Friday afternoon!). Then I've got another week at home before my next trip. Must say I'm loving being part time. Anyway better get organised, I've got to get some songs to put on Cam's ipod as mine isn't working and I can't cope without and ipod. Cam's idea of music to train to and mine are very different (he might get a shock when he uses his ipod next time!).

Anyway just wanted to say a big thank you to everyone who left a comment, it has helped so much just hearing other people's experiences. It's great to know your not alone. THANK YOU.

Love Hilds

Hormones and Depression

Oh my god sometimes I just wish I wasn't a woman! The last couple of weeks my hormones have been completely out of control. After 15 years I decided to go of the pill, not realising what a complete nightmare it would be. The last couple of weeks I've been so depressed, crying all the time for no apparent reason, forgetful, tired and just not at all myself! My poor new husband! (I think he has had moments where he was wondering why we got married!).

At the best of times I struggle not to slip into depression and rely heavily on exercising and eating well to keep me in a good frame of mind but with the change in hormones even that hasn't been enough. I went to the Dr the other day and was a blubbering mess and I was informed I'm depressed! Well I knew that, but what can I do to fix it! I pretty much know I have to exercise, eat well, think positive thoughts just to stay on track, but it is so so so frustrating when you are so down and there isn't a real reason for it.

Many of my family suffer from depression and up to now I was hoping that by living the way I do I could avoid it. My sister has got to a point where she relies on anti depressants and until seeing what dark places she got into I always thought there was so many other options. I still believe that for so many the benefits or a good clean diet and regular exercise are amazing although when it gets to the point you cannot function in your daily life then I do believe that medication can assist. In saying that I'm trying to keep positive and have been exercising lots, eating so well and taking every supplement known to man!

Although even with all the healthy living I am successfully putting on a kilo each week! I think (hope) a lot of it has to do with my hormones being out of control and not having a period since being of the pill. I just feel so puffy and fat that it is a depressing vicious circle.

Anyway just needed to get that of my chest. If there is anyone out there who has experienced anything similar I would love to hear from you.

For now I will keep positive and in saying that I'm of to the gym for session number two today (gotta do something to make me feel good!)

Love Hilds

Hooked on FACEBOOK

I never thought I would be one to get hooked on something like facebook. The last couple of days I've been amazed at how many friends I have found through facebook. Its been great seeing pics of all your old school friends and seeing where everyone is at. Although it hasn't been too good for me achieving my massive TO DO LIST.

Is anyone else out there a bit of a list freak. Each day I have to have my list of things to do, I rarely get it all done but without my list I feel a little lost. I've found after getting back from holidays I'm finding it really hard to get my mojo back!

I used to get up at 5am to do my workouts and would rarely miss one although this week I've been struggling to get up at 8am and have been up to midnight most nights. Don't know what's happening but can't wait to be an early riser again, I seem to get so much more done.

Just heard that Cam & I are off to Airlie Beach for 2 nights on Sunday. I can't wait I haven't even spend a night with Cam yet as he is on afternoon shift this week. I haven't been to Airlie for years so if will be great just to get away for a couple of days. Also next weekend we are off to Adelaide as its Cam's Dad 60th. I really don't think I'm meant to sleep in the same bed for more than a week.

Anyway stomach is rumbling, time for a big juicy salad!

Love Hilds

So good to be home....

I'm finally home after two weeks of flying all over the place. It was a bit of a shock to the system going straight back to work after only 2 days at home. I ended up doing a 6 day trip to Singapore, with lots of flying back and forth. On one day we flew from Singapore to Perth and back to Singapore, it was a very long day. So anyway all the hard work is over and I'm very very happy to be home until the end of February.

I am no longer working at the gym as I was just getting way too tired to fit it all in. So now I have heaps of time to get stuck into my many exciting goals for 2008.

This year I will be getting stuck into my own business (will reveal all once it is all finalised). Keeping up with my fitness and trying to get a bit leaner and fitter. I also need to complete my cert 4 (nearly there, I have just been dragging out the last little bit!).

I've also gone of the pill after about 15 years so I'm looking forward to seeing if I even get a proper cycle and getting myself ready to have a baby! Its kinda freaky thinking about having a baby but we can't keep putting it off forever. So were not trying right now (just practicing!!!) but later in the year we will most probably try. Its kinda funny that you put so much thought into wether to have a child or not and its quite possible that you can't, but we will cross that road if it comes.

So I'll be focussing on getting myself fit and healthy and in a good place before we think about having a bub. I'm seriously starting to get clucky although quite scared at the same time (I think about all that will change a little bit too much). I've downloaded this ovulation calender and its pretty groovy coz it tells you when you should/shouldn't be having sex, it says it can also help you determine what sex your baby will be (no idea if this works but sounds interesting).

Anyway I got back to the gym today as I have only been doing bits and pieces over the last few weeks. I did legs on friday and geez I have been sore the last few days. I don't think I have ever been this sore, ever, I could barely walk up the aisle on the aircraft and had to fall into bed as it hurt too much to bend, even had to lower myself on the loo (you know your in a bad way when that happens), I felt like I had done some serious damage. I should learn to ease back into things, although I do love getting Doms as you know you have trained hard. So back on track and hopefully the holiday weight starts to come off. I'm always a bit bigger after a good holiday but I expect it now (I like to truly relax on holidays!) and just know it will take me a few weeks to feel back to normal again.

Anyway enough rambling for one day!

Love Hilds

BEWARE LONG WEDDING POST!

The Italians!

I'M MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!

And wow what an amazing time it was. I still can't believe that we had so many friends and family come all the way to Thailand to help us celebrate getting married!

We had the best day ever, I could do it over an over again.

It wasn't your typical wedding! I saw Cam the morning of the wedding and we hung out and had breaky and caught up with some friends. I was maybe a bit too relaxed and didn't start getting ready until way way too late. So I was a bit flustered when my hair wouldn't go right (95% humidity and a broken aircon didn't help!). So with my makeup melting of my face and my hair that wouldn't hold a curl to save its life I wasn't feeling too flash! The funny thing is as soon as I saw Cam and we were all on the boat I couldn't have cared less (wouldn't have mattered how my hair turned out anyway, as once I got on the speed boat it went everywhere anyway!). I couldn't stop smiling and just had the best day ever!

We caught a speedboat over to Bamboo Island, which is just off of Phi Phi Island. We ended up getting there a bit early, so when we arrived at Bamboo there were still a few Day Tripper tourists on the beach. It turned out to be the funniest part of the day, as we were all getting of the boat everyone (50+ people) on the beach started cheering and clapping (by the way we weren't even married yet!). I think they thought we were famous or something because I have never seen so many cameras in all my life. We were getting photos with old italian men in their speedos (nice!), their children and whoever else they could throw at us. Don't quite know what I was thinking getting married in the heat of the day in Thailand, I was just glad I'd had a couple of champas before arriving!

So it was lots and lots of pictures a very funny ceremony where our celebrant Noi could not pronounce my name to save his life (it was quite entertaining). I thought I would have been a blubbering mess but it turned out I was having too much fun and had troubles to stop laughing.

So the wedding day was just perfect!

Although all didn't go too well in the lead up. On the way to Thailand we lost our bags (first crying session). Our flight to Phuket was delayed, meaning we missed the ferry to Phi Phi, wasted a nights accommodation and had no where to stay in Phuket. The room we booked on Phi Phi was right near the pool, which is fine but also right near the noisy bar, most nights didn't get to sleep until 2am, lucky we were drinking every day!

Because some guests were only arriving a couple of days before the wedding we decided to have the combined Hens/Bucks night (I know not traditional to have them together but lots of fun!) on the Saturday night and the wedding was on the Monday. We drank to who knows what time, went swimming fully clothed and danced on the beach all night, it was soooo much fun. So Cam was half dead all day Sunday, I was sorta coping but not too well. Thank god for an amazing sister and some great friends who got all my crap together for me. You plan to eat well and exercise right up until your wedding day, well I think I did the opposite. I didn't want to regret not enjoying every minute with our family and friends in Thailand, so I did enjoy every minute!

We ended up having to change our honeymoon accommodation due to making sure we got to spend time with everyone. So the amazing place we were suppose to stay wasn't free on the dates we needed so we stayed in Krabi instead. It was an amazing resort although they had a French Conference group there who had big party/bands on every night (lucky we got room moved). Then on the way home we couldn't get any accommodation in Singapore so we had to spend the whole night hanging in Changi airport (2nd crying episode!).

All in all it was a big adventure and the best part is that the wedding couldn't have been better if we wanted it to be! Just might need another honeymoon.

So on to an exciting year. I have so many plans, both personal and business wise this year (but I'll save that for another post!).

Will visit everyones blogs soon, have been outta the loop for too long.

Lots of Love Hilds